Once, I had a Love

It was the most beautiful days in my life. But I always felt that, I’m gonna miss it soon or later. And I knew that, I never find a girl like her again for my life time. She was the perfect one for me in every way. But I couldn’t tell her that, though I loved her so much. I always kept that within my heart as a secret. I never wanted to expose my love to her. I always tried to pretend I’m just a friend of her. But As Always, I wanted to be with her and I loved her. I knew, she also wanted the same. But she always tried to refrain it. And I didn’t let her know, that I always knew she was pretending that not so. I believe we both played the same game. So...I remember the last day that I met her in a cafe in "Volgograd"…

“I can’t believe why I close to you so much Ivan… why I talk with you so much…why I’m so friendly with you so much, even I have a boy friend. You know what Ivan…I feel... I made a terrible mistake in my life, that I never can revise….

“What is it Olya?”

“My fiancé…he is not the one for me, Ivan; I could have found a better one than him. You know... Once he was begging my love. Even, I didn’t like him. But later, I felt sad about him. Then I said “yes” to him. But I know it’s not real love.”

“I’m sorry Olya…but that is the life, everything not goes as we want”

“You don’t know what the love is, Ivan. But in a way, you right, everything not goes as we want …now it’s too late for me” 

I just sighed while looking in to her tearful eyes…then there was a silent. And again she mumbled to me.

“Why I tell you those things which I never told to anyone? I can’t understand anything...Oh god… I wanted this friendship keep forever. I feel sad about us… Ivan…Even, I don’t know how we gonna end up this story...”

“It’s Ok Olya…lets we live, don’t think so much. At least we met for our lives, we know that we really like each other. we must be happy about that.” You just smiled at me innocently.

But I feel the same about us, sad. And always I think "why I didn’t meet her early in my life?"

Then we took the lunch together. I told her that, I never forget that day, and she said the same.

She married on 30^thof November in 2005. I knew one day it’s going to be happened. I never talked to her since then. Once she made me laugh, made me happy, showed me the love, gave me a hope, and at last made me cry. At least now I feel that I had a true love once and it will last in my heart forever.

Inspired By True Story.